BOOM Goes my life!!!!!!

So its been awhile but because my life has gone topsy-turvy haven't felt like writing. So still jobless although I am working my ass off to find a job. Was told I have to start taking insulin last week which is hell for me. Then I found out today that Blue Cross will not give me benefits as I have not been off my paxil for over 2 years. Then M didn't even bother to call me when she got to Ontario and got an email on facebook from L from Ontario stating M lost my number and if I give it to her she will have M call me. Aren't I feeling the love! NOT!!! The one constant has been S... he has been my rock while I am sure I am falling apart. Sorry all needed to vent and scream and cry!!!! Toodles