It's the most wonderful time of the Year

Ok so things still are not perfect. He still has no job and EI is jerking him around but... Christmas shopping is basically done (only need to ship things). Also yesterday my big sis called me up and because mom was having eye problems (sorry to hear that mom) I was invited to watch A Christmas Carol at the Citadel Theater and it was BEAUTIFUL!!!!! I now see why people say its not christmas until they see it because I agree. Now all I need is a tree... hmm

Almost done with Christmas!

Ok so with the exception of 2 gifts and mailing them I AM DONE my christmas shopping! Yippeee!
Other than that doing nothing else but watch Avatar Season 1, 2, and 3.

So far know I want to travel and see Greece and Rome but may never get to go due to no money and homebody bf.

Officially Heading for Christmas

Its official! I have started my Christmas collection by getting Christmas CD's from the library to put on my ipod! My friend told me to write more and that may be a problem as my life is incredibly boring! But I shall try! hmmmmm

Ah I know how about the fact that I am settling in my relationship due to my unrealistic wants for a life mate. I want a man who will take care of me but let me be independent, will love me for all my oddities and be ok with the fact that I will change ALOT! Will like some of the same movies, books, tv shows, and hobbies as me but also have his own. Wants kids! A must! I want a man who has his own friends but who is also ok with making friends as a couple. Decent job (don't care how much he makes as long as between both of us we can live comfortably). Wants to try new things and experiences. Wants to travel. Will never get cranky with me when he's tired. NOT addicted to video games. WILL put our relationship and our family and friends first. Will help clean around the house (or hire a maid). Animal lover. Oooo great sex! Somewhat good looking. Open minded about religion.

See I'm unrealistic... too bad cuz thats my perfect man.

Life So Doesn't Turn Out Right Anymore

So I met someone new (a friend that is.) and she made me realize a few things. First of all I am not happy in my current relationship and second of all I need a social life. In fact as I type this he is sitting next to me fucking with his phone and oblivious to my seething resentment... That's not fair to say as maybe I'm just stressed cuz he still has no job and doesn't seem to care per se as he stresses about not being able to pay rent and what does he do today? Nothing! Problem is I cannot afford to move out and I wont move in with friends as I believe I may be a bad roommate.

Another realization recently: I am a hard person to be friends with! I tend to push away my friends all the time and I need to stop as I have really great friends. Well technically I should have been in bed 30 min ago sooo...

Bye for Now